Pop star Ellie Goulding has opened up about a tough few years in the spotlight admitting her ‘lowest days were ridiculously low’. Ellie says the episodes got so bad she felt like she was having a heart attack
Pop star Ellie Goulding has revealed she endured a painful battle with mental health issues when she was in her 20s, suffering from crippling panic attacks and an addiction to exercise.
The singer, 34, has opened up about her tough times in her new book Fitter. Calmer. Stronger, which is released next month.
In the book, as reported by The Sun, she wrote: “My low days used to be ridiculously low. I just couldn’t find a way out of them. I often felt as if I was failing because when I felt down I wasn’t being productive.”
She describes her like as a pop as like “being strapped to a space shuttle” as she would sometimes fly to three countries in one day.
Ellie admitted her gruelling schedule took a toll on her mental health, writing: “By my mid-20s I was suffering debilitating panic attacks.
“They began to build slowly. I remember experiencing one on an early photoshoot. It happened again shortly afterwards, when I was about to take part in a live TV show.
“I did the show. I was acting the part of the pop star, but inside none of it felt real or deserved.
“To this day, I have never watched that show back. I’m scared I will spot the terror in my eyes.”
She went on reveal the episodes became “routine” but one particularly scary attack left her feeling like she was suffering a heart attack.
Ellie also admitted she attempted to exert control over her feeling through exercise.
Ellie explained: “I didn’t realise it at the time, but I was using exercise as a crutch. I couldn’t control many things around me, but I could control how much I exercised.
“Exercising too much led me to start eating poorly. Rather than seeing food as fuel and making wise decisions, I’d eat rubbish and think I could just burn off the calories…
“It was about distracting myself from how I felt.”
Ellie sought help and started undergoing cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT), which she credits with turning her life around.
It also helped her change her relationship with exercise and working out became a “sanctuary”instead of a way for her to dodge her true feelings.
She also changed her diet and now prioritises eating well.
Even though Ellie admits she still sometimes suffers feelings of anxiety, she now feels happier and more confident – and better able to cope with whatever life throws at her.
The singer married her partner Caspar Jopling in a lavish ceremony back in 2019 and last year the pair announced they were expecting their first child together.
Ellie gave birth to a son named Arthur Ever Winter in February.
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